My Dear Sister, Michelle

Michelle and Diane @ the Cabin
This past Sunday, I attended Mayfield Primary's Sacrament Meeting Program. Hunter is a new little Sunbeam, so it was a must for us to be in attendance. The little children sang, "If the Savior Stood Beside Me.". Whenever I sing or hear this song, it brings tears to my eyes, I mean every time. It is such a beautiful song, but the reason. . . When this song was first published, Michelle and I sang it in Sacrament meeting and Relief Society, and I must admit, it was beautiful. Tomorrow will be the 3rd year anniversary of her death. I love this time of year, but then, it is also a reminder of her final weeks of fighting the cancer, pain, sadness, tears, questions, her family, our family; it was a very difficult time. I miss her so much. Words can't even begin to express how much I miss her. We did everything possible together. We decorated, scrapbooked, tole painted, quilted, canned, shopped, talked, cried and sang together. We exchanged much needed advice when having those frustrating days. Years ago, I was extremely angry with my husband and kids. I was livid and furious - - enough that I actually packed up a bag and took off down the street, my kids hysterically crying as I drove off, and I didn't have a plan; I ended up in Springville and spent the night with Michelle. ( I don't recall even calling my family, imagine that!) We had a good visit; as she was always a great listener and confidant. The next day, I returned home, to find a sorry, grateful and appreciative family, well, it lasted for a few days, but it FELT GREAT! I would often threaten, but never follow through. I’m not exactly recommending this to everyone, but it seemed to work for me that particular day. If I could have anything in the world, it would be to spend a day with my dear, dear sister, Michelle. I miss you every day! LOVE YOU, SIS!